so guys are dumb. yes, that's right i said it. we are dumb. we are perhaps the dumbest living things on this planet. but why are we dumb you may ask? simply because women and men don't think alike. and therefore neither can fully understand each other's thoughts, actions and such things. but there has to be some answer? i mean, it seems that the only men who understand women completly have limp wrists? so like i dunno.

times like these ... these absolute shite days, where i feel like the only thing that will make me feel better is the un-mentionable. that's right you guessed it... throwing my computer out the window.

it seems for the majority of my mature (or lack of maturity one could say) life, i've always seemed to be that shoulder to cry on, even though most people can't even reach my shoulder when they stand on their toes, let alone cry on it. but let's speak metaphorically here. because it works, k?

but seriouslly, friends from all over the world have come to me. now where are you when i need you most? seems like what comes around, just doesn't go around, doesn't it. life's a bitch. i guess you can't really expect it. they say if you give a friend a favor, don't expect a favor in return ... so i suppose i could be in the wrong doing here. but i dont think so ...

so if i were me, and someone came to me ... what would i tell them?

#1.) stop whining like a little bitch.
#2.) humans are prone to error. everyone makes mistakes, 'tis not the end of the world my friend.

but what do you say to her? like what can be said? "i'm sorry" only goes so far, and frankly not far enough. it doesn't even begin to express what i am going through right now. i hope SHE knows and understands that.

i also can't forget what i have done. belive me I KNOW. i don't need to be told again. so the only thing keeping me going right now is the persistence of joel trying to cheer me up. talking about the scare-d-cat in his room going nuts over a piece of string. i admit it is amusing, but just don't cut the cake, sorry joel.

so how do you tell someone how you truly feel? words just dont seem to cut it. how do you tell someone that they mean the world to you? how do you tell someone you are sorry for what you've done? how do you tell them that you'd be a wheel with no spokes without them? how do you tell someone that you couldn't bare to hurt them? how do you tell someone that you love them more than anything???

soooo many questions. yet so few answers.
remember, we can only learn to love by loving.

and with that:
Love is a thing, well, its kind of like quicksand:
the more you are in it, the deeper you sink.
and when it hits you, you've just gotta fall.